So I'm not a steady blogger...

    I know it has been awhile and alot has changed since we last posted. I guess this has became my blog now instead of ours. I seem to be the one doing most of the work and writing to it anyhow. Chris and I have had some really rocky roads behind us since I last posted. Lost another horse, started our own company, I am enrolled in college, our oldest is in middle school now....and we are no longer a STRONG couple...Too much time together has hurt us I think..We love each other more than life can bare,  I hate being without him. My heart breaks every second we are apart. His work has picked up some and he's gone quite often now. I pray he stays safe. I pray he loves me as much as he says he does and remembers his way back home to me, He is my life. My very breath I breath. I feel I will die if he is gone from me for too long.

I love you Christopher Kirby. Please come home safely and still loving me.

R.I.P. EMMY

We lost one of our biggest babies today, Chris found her at the bottom of our cliff line. We are unsure, but think something chased her over it because there were no slide marks. She will be truly missed. Emmy was a very mild tempered, loving,willing 'ol lady. Always looking to please us. She loved our kids and had a great personality. Our beautiful girl and Chris's big baby. It really breaks my heart because he loved that horse so much, I know we will have another in due time so that Belle has another team mate, but there will NEVER be another one like her.
REST IN PEACE beautiful Emmy.

time to relax...

So, Saturday was mine and Chris's anniversary. 5 years. Seems like just yesterday we were calling each other on the phone with shaky voices. I've known this man my entire life. I've never been so happy. I hope that I can HONESTLY say the same thing in the next 40-50 years to come. We plan on celebrating on Monday with massages,shopping, and dinner. And end the day with some well deserved..well needed ALONE time to relax and just enjoy being with each other. God knows it may be the last anniversary we actually get to spend together considering Chris starts his new job soon. SO proud of my baby. Its not everyday or just anyone that gets recruited by the #4 subsidiary security company in THE WORLD. I know he's gonna be gone from home alot more now, but this IS Chris. Always has been his dream since we were kids. AND THEY RECRUITED HIM! If he didn't take this opportunity, He may have never got one like it again. And I am NOT the type of person to hold anyone back from their dreams coming true. Ex specially the love of my life.

PLEASE! NO MORE!

ok. I have officially filled my brain with enough things to process, so I would appreciate it if no one else drops anything else on my plate for awhile. PLATE FULL!! Can't consume much more;) ugh! BUT- on the Brighter side of life, Chris and I have Planned out our Anniversary get away, and I am excited. WE really need it too. A couples massage, nice dinner, night out, get a room.... ;)....and then go spend the next day at the State Fair looking at the exhibits and watching the horse show. Will be a very nice get away and hopefully an even nicer stress reliever. I love you Christopher.

what to do, oh what to do?

Had a very rough week this week, hard to know which direction to go. Feeling a little lost I guess.I just dont understand somethings and dont know how to fix somethings as well. Right now, Im just here if that makes sense. loosing your best friend isnt the easiest thing to do in life...and thats how I feel. But I know whats in my heart. And I DO BELIEVE love conquers all. so It has to get better.
But on another note, our tomatoes are about done producing for us and we still have lots of things to can that requires them so I hope we can find a produce place or something thats cheap enough. We still gonna have to buy peaches ,apples, and prolly more cabbage too. Really wish we could get our beef in the freezer soon...its been WAY to hot to even attempt to do that tho. But hopefully we can get some fishing in soon and deer season will be here before we know it...those two things will help out in the meat dept. Im just really hating the price of groceries right now. Upsets me terribly every week it seems something goes up in price. its rediculous. been at a stand still this week on the house too. Things we cant help just havent allowed us to continue. Think its driving us both nuts. But hopefully that will be back on track too soon. wish our fruit trees were big enuff to produce more. But that wont be for atleast another 2 years or so. (if we dont get aggravated at the dag on weeds and end up killing EVERYTHING we have to rid them out) Just another *thing* to have to worry about. I swear I HATE having weeds. not only are they an eye sore...but they KILL my allergies....attract bugs..snakes...all that crap that I dont like....OH AND SPEAKING OF BUGS>>> I could have REALLY WHOOPED Chris this week. I BOUT HAD A REAL HEART ATTACK. cried and everything. I think it was Wed evening , Jacob was looking for a movie to watch and there was this HUGE spider that had webbed and was just sitting there on its nasty little web waiting for an attack.....Chris went to try to kill it for me(between laughing his ass off and tawnting me with it)...>>>> and MISSED the ugly sucker!!! couldnt find it anywhere....hhuumm... THE NEXT MORNING.....do normal morning stuffs....first things first,, gotta pee.....so I turn on the light do my business...go to the sink to brush my teeth....get tooth brush, tooth paste, look in the mirror....(all while standing and leaning over the sink)...look down to turn on the water....UGLY SUCKER WEBBED UP AND LOOKING AT ME WITH ITS FRONT TWO LEGGS UP IN ATTACK MODE...........IT WAS SO BIG IT WAS LARGER THAN THE DRAIN HOLE!!!!! I screamed ...bout fell over the bath tub backing away from it....and started crying....ALL THE WHILE CHRIS is sitting in the living room...CRACKING UP. ASs HOLE seen it in the sink first when he was in there and left it ON PURPOSE to scare me. NEXT TIME......(there better not be one by the way) there will be a pay back...... he doesnt like snakes ya know............... It still creeps me out when I see that thing in my mind....ugh...just ugh......... But I do feel better now....missin my hubby.want to leave this place and want to go home to the mean ass. <3 <3 <3

Stupid ass gov

Ok folks I would normaly put somthing like this on the shade tree page but I want to make sure that the few people that do follow or read this blog sees this.  To start with get over my color wordage to come, freedom of speech and freedom of press are mine.  Dont stop reading because of that cause the info contain is worth it, and I am to pissed off to attempt to remember that I have a large vocab.
   Looking around some homesteading forums and rural living sites I find that most of rural america is pissed of at the government and wants to do somthing to stop all the stupid shit that is going on up there on captial hill.  Well I agree.  Stupid shit like trying to spend your way out of det, or passing laws that protects us from ourselves or somthing as stupid as making farmers get a class A cdl to drive there tractors from on field to another need to be stoped.  One thing that seams to be the same no matter where I find these complaints is that people want to know how to stop it.  Well frist you should have listen in school when they told you have our Repulician form of Governement works.  But since aparently you didn't listen NOW.  WE THE PEOPLE have the power to run our country.  We elect people to do our will.  The problem is once they are elected they think that they can do what ever they want.  Well wrong.  WE THE PEOPLE need to stand up and let them know that if they dont do what we want then they will not be in office any more.  To start fixing it VOTE.  If you dont vote dont bitch cause you are a big part of the problem.  Yeah at times there is not a great person to vote for but still vote at least that way you can tell them that I voted and you are not doing what I voted for you to do.  The excusse that you dont have time to vote is nothing but a lie, your employer is required by law to allow you to go vote, so dont even try to use that one. 
    So if you do vote the next thing is to keep the people that you voted for on speed dial.  If somthing is going befor them that you like let them know if you dont like it let them know.  They can't do our will if the dont kow what our will is for fuck sake.  If you feel very strong on a topic let them know that is they go against what you want the will loose your vote and you will try your damnest to make sure they loose all of your friends votes also.  Send them letter, emails and phone calls.  Take 10 minutes out of your life to help ensure that we have a strong country for year to come.  If you can't take that much time then just shoot your damn self cause your stupid anyway and the world would be better with out you.  Dont be super nice either let them know just how pissed off you are over the topic.  Tell them that they are a stupid ass and start getting it right befor the American people come and toss there ass out of Washington.  Which yes we have the right to do it is part of the second amendment that every one forgets about.  We have the right to keep and bears arms (now get this) IN THE INTREST OF A FREE AND SOVERGINE NATION.  They try to take our freedom then we can and yes should remove them even if it has to be by force.  America I have said this many times over and am going to say it again GROW SOME DAMN BALLS.  Hell the fag grew some balls and are up there fighting so that they can be married and all that.  Yet we can't get up there fight for our right to feed our selves or to raise our childern the way we want, or to be able to talk to someone on the phone with out the listening in.  Boy it is said when a cock suckin faget has the balls to fight to demoralize this great nation but you can't get enough people to stand up and say hey this is my land not yours and I will use it how ever the hell I see fit.  It sickens me at times to think that I fought to protect poeple that will not stand up for there own rights.  That my friends are dieing on forgin siol for you america and you will not stand up for your self.  America the ball is our court, the court of the people, now are we going to take it to the goal or stand around with our thumb up our ass going "what do we do what do we do" or are we going to take back our great nation.  I guess that only time will tell.  I am going to fight for my rights how ever the hell that I can or have to.  I hope and pray that I am not alone.

CANT WAIT TO GET HOME!!!!

I've had a good weekend this weekend. Very thankful for it. been too many bad ones lately. Chris has been working like crazy on the house stem wall. Made lots of progress lately. I'm so thankful. I'm super excited about canning this week. Ive been wanting to learn how to do pickles for a long time! I think Ive shocked myself this year, because I have enjoyed canning so much. Its been my stress reliever and * ME* time. And I'm loving it! The *ME* time may come to a holt tho over the next week at least until school starts cause I got a little cow girl who's just as excited as i am about learning the process....and shes back HOME from her fathers house....ready and roaring to go at it. I cant wait to get home in the morning. <3